Hi i am still finding it hard to deal with this and i dont feel i have any right to feel this way as jordynlee was my sisters little girl i cared i cared alot as i was the one that would take her in the car to hospital if something was wrong i was there when my sister got her bad news that jordynlee was dying and would be lucky to see 6 months well jordynlee died when she was just 4 months and 2 weeks old so tiny so cute so delicate i want to move on but i find myself thinking about jordynlee alot in my life as i really got attached with everything i was doing in her short life i have three great kids of my own now and i live in england with them and my great wife i love them all very much and i know that if i had to go through what my sister has went through with jordynlee i could never do it its always harder when its your own tho well so they say. My heart goes out to my sister she has her probs with drinking and stuff but she still goes out to work to provide for the famiy she has just her and her kids her man could not deal with it either and they ended up splitting up she may have a drink but she is still there for her kids well done to you rebecca i know we dont talk to each other now im sorry for that but i would never wish you any harm i hope you are well and hang in there girl it will never go away but you will find a way to cope with your hurt that you have all my love to you and the kids xxx